PUSH!

I have decided when you feel like you are being pushed then you grit your teeth, growl, and push back. But what if it is your body that is pushing you? I feel hungry then I take two bite of fish or veggies and my body says- "Oh, No Thank you!" and I don't feel hungry anymore. I know I need to eat more but just can't put it in my mouth. Then on top of that I have figured out that if I don't eat enough protein throughout the day or I go too long before eating than my moods goes for a violent swing. We went to a BBQ today and I didn't cheat AT ALL! THey had the biggest burgers I have ever seen lately, but the burgers were not the biggest temptation- it was the potato salad and CHEESE DIP! Do you hear my Kracken- I passed up CHEESE DIP! THere was even a cute little one who was maybe 4 or 5 yrs old and he went around and gave chocolate eggs to all the women and he was so sweet with his big teethy grin and when I declined he made a pouty face and said, " But mommy said that girls love candy" and held it out to me again. I took it from him because no was not an option and when he went onto the next female- I quickly gave it to hubby. I am so proud of myself for losing so much and I have so many people saying how proud they are of me but I am tired of the same food for lunch and dinner, lunch and dinner, lunch and dinner, lunch and dinner, lunch and dinner, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!
Hot tea makes me feel better!

Real me!

Ok guys- I will be honest- last night was even harder than this morning- I thought I wanted to pound my head through the wall to avoid the pain. Running on a treadmill at 7.0 mph is a new point of torture. My hubby had some friends in town and they were all meeting last night- I wanted to go so bad. However I was so tired that I almost didn't eat dinner- I also knew that there would be pizza, chips, and cherry cokes ( my fav)- it didn't help that hubby didn't get home until 1 AM. Well- I passed and sent my love and went to bed at my earliest ever 8:45 PM. I was sound asleep and shook awake at 12:30 AM. One of my best friends called sobbing- she had met her breaking point and didn't know who to call and needed help. I know I could avoided the call, I could have said I 'll call you in the morning, but there is one thing about me. My friends are treasured and my close friends are family and I will do anything for my babies and my family! It didn't matter that I had a day from hades, it didn't matter that I hurt so bad that I wanted to hit my head, or the fact that I had to get up at 3:45 AM- I knew my family needed me and I was there for them. This morning Master Chief and Sgt had a talk with us all while we were working out and got us all back on focus- THanks I needed that. Sorry guys- looks like only one blog from me today again- after workout I will be going to help my family who needs me. It just goes to show you that it takes so much to focus on this "work out" part of our life and then you have everything else screams, "what about me!" April has had family issues during this and I applaud her for not asking for time off to be with her family- I know that was hard. Niki has a sick baby and she still came this morning early to workout and Odessa has school stuff that she is missing to be at workout but we all come and we all work so Hard!

I'm proud of all of us and all the food fighter girls- including Ashley, Christie, Monika, and Racheal

Gluts handed to us

OMG! I don't have time to go into detail but we got it handed to us today. Lets just say when our AM was over- I was so beyong tired that I stood against the wall for support, tipped my water bottle upside down and balanced it on the wall so my arms could hang down. Please God don't let me throw up.

ABIZZLE

ATTENTION MEMPHIS AND ALL OTHER VIEWERS! We need to bring back ABIZZLE! She is a super awesome person. She had what sounded like the worst week ever the first week - her phone fell out the car, apt flooded, baby issues, CAR BROKE DOWN, fell and hurt her ankle in the gym ( that might have been the seocnd week-but we'll count it). and other crazy stuff happened- I bring that up because she came in everyday each time with a smile on her face. We love you happy feet! She is such a strong and beautiful person! She had to have a restricted birthday due to diet and exercise- which we know that sucked! She created an inside joke for the team that consist of two words but the voice that she says it in- makes me bust off laughing everytime it is said! Yes I want Monika to come back - I love her because we are going to do the Tina shimmee on BEale street. But I feel bad that Ashley might get the wrong idea of why we voted for her. She was such a hard worker- she lost so much weight and she never says die! I only voted for her because her body percentage was slightly lower this week. Did you guys know that she jogged/ran for 15 minutes straight- STRAIGHT! We were allowed to break it up between running and walking a little and she ran the whole way-----WHAT!!!!!!!!

I want her back!

Sucky McSuckface!

Ok----I am sorry for the younger viewers- I know I have little ones viewing and there are other younger fans/support groups that look at these things but there is no better title for this day. I was so afraid that I would be in the bottom two- so afraid that I just prayed and prayed about it. I knew that whatever happened that it was meant to be. Then I found out that I was saved but the relief feeling didn't come because that meant I had to vote a great person off. To me, when it comes to MY team, when it comes to my friends - there is no ultimate strategy. I looked at the body percentage that was lost for this week and that was it- nothing more and nothing less.
After I came home, I felt like sulking so I climbed in bed and read my book for a while and took a nap. I love school holidays! It was never easy to kick Monika or Chrisitie off because they are beyong awesome but having even more time to get to know HAPPY FEET than it is that much harder to have to vote.

While having my later breakfast and mentally preparing myself to get ready to go to the office a billboard thought rushed to my head!:
OMG, I made it another week :)................................HOLY BLEEP I made it to the next week!=#
What in the bleep did I just do?!?!?!?!
That's when you grin, swallow fear and say "Yes Master Chief/Sgt Slaughter- may I have another?!"

Ouch

I have been driving myself crazy with so many questions that my head hurts! Things like:

* Did I lose enough weight? I know I didn't cheat but did I eat the right combination of food?
*How much is too much sodium? * Are these good calories or bad calories?
* What do the trainers consider a balanced diet? Can I eat dairy when this is over?
WHAT ARE THEY GOING TO DO ABOUT THE UNEVEN TEAMS? If the teams combine- how will it be fair? Did I eat enough? Did I not eat enough? Did I get enough sleep? How do I get rid of blisters? What in the hades will we do next week? Too much- too much!

I just remind myself that I did my best, I have a GREAT support system, and I am leaving it up to him now! Tomorrow is the big day!

Hold my head up

Ok- I have a nasty blister on my little toe and it hurts to put any pressure on it- but I don't think about it when I am working out. I cooked a lot of fish tonight for the next lunch and dinners. I love my friends/family- I got like 3 voice mails today - all random - all saying how proud they are of me. You know I might be tired, my foot may hurt and I might not get to spend as much time with my husband at this very moment but this is all so worth. Thank you Master Chief and Sgt. Slaughter! Thank you to my Food fighter girls and thank you Q1075!

Have you Blogged today?

Heard Niki on the radio this morning and I agree with her that if we get told to blog and you don't blog than you need to be punished! I mean - K & K got onto Odessa for missing 2-3 days - so where is the teacher's ruler now? If we miss one session of workout than we get the boot. Showing up to the gym is in the rules and so is the blogs. If you miss more than 2 days than you should either be up for elimination or you should have to sit at the radio station on Tuesday- eat a whole pizza and not go work out that day. Something drastic. Weekends need to count too- if some can do it than ALL should do it! I am not hatin, she is doin great but 7 days is TOO much to get away with!

Higher Support

This was actually our Epistle lesson from Feb 24, 2008 but I kept onto it becasue it is so important to me right now and I have been meaning to share it with ya'll.

Romans 5: 3-5

More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly.

THANKS BE TO GOD!

Now forgive me but you might need a hanky- But I have to thank my mom for pulling my butt out of bed and dragging me to church when I was younger. I threw my teenage rebellion and wandered away from church for personal reasons and now I have been guided back. If it wasn't for my mom than I would have such a close spiritual relationship. If I did not have this to support me I know that this competition would be so much harder. Because when I have sweat pouring down my face, arms hurtin to the point I want to rip them off and cookies within grabbing reach- I stop and remind myself one thing. God will not give me anything that he knows that I can't handle! I also love my kids at Faith Lutheran - they might not know but I value them all and they all have beautiful spirits. Even though they don't always clean up the gym, or stop talking during church or wake me up from sleep on mission trips.

BUT I LOVE THEM and I love our pastors ( wives and children included!)

I got this!

Ok...so working out does have a tendency to jumble up your normal schedule but it is so worth it! More intense now makes it easier to keep up later. It is nice that I am noticing I am not as sore throughout the day- Yeah it might hurt while you there or you may not want to get up to go but the hardest part is GETTING THERE! Once you're there- you growl and do it. It's feels awesome after you're done. I do feel sorry for my husband though - we are trying to think of where to go out to eat and he wants chines, Mexican but thanks to me- we can go where ever they have fish- Chinese is not one of them I feel.